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今天肚醫師跟我說他的新朋友對我的評價：追求完美以致於給自己壓力太大。肚醫師又分享他先前做grand round時看不懂paper，最後他導師給他的評語：給自己壓力太大。

我反問肚醫師一句，那他們有說如何不要追求完美嗎? (like technically, what are the approaches and methods)

有時候那根本不是追求完美，那只是要把事情給做好。或者是說，其實要把事情做好的人有時也滿可憐的，他們不知道要怎麼減低"標準"。不知道這算不算是強迫症，改天來看看DSM-IV好了。

Why?

I am so angry. Is shit-rain an actual term? (Or shit-rains, raining shit...?)

How stupid can the UPS be? World class logistic my ass. The driver obviously did not deliver the package to my door step. In fact, he didn't even ring the door bell. Yes, I am certain the driver is a he. All the UPS drivers are male, most of them have muscles and good looks. Yes, that's also a fact. My friend who worked for Fedex during college said he felt like being harassed by all the ladies and blank.

Before UPS was the carrier from USPS (United State Postal Service). The carrier was just too lazy to check that the package was supposed to be forwarded. Then the other USPS workers are just lazy as well. Seriously, first you told me it is not there; then it shows up magically and you send it to Chicago for it to transit to Taiwan (knock on wood).

And what is it with everyone in the office. The all-about-sex colleague is not doing data analysis. But it is data analysis season (it is always data analysis season). There are tons of data and you are on data analysis probation?

Then there is the other colleague who works exactly 5 hours each day (we are on 5 hours shift). Like when the clock tick 2:00, the colleague is off to do his/her own business. Really?! So then occasionally he/she works 20 extra minutes (for example), then he/she will send an e-mail (yes, you read it right) to our boss: Hi boss, I work extra 20 minutes today. Seriously, I work overtime nearly everyday. (Okay so I want to keep my job, eat me).

It's like crap rain. Ever heard of that expression? Most likely not cause I made it up.

So last week at the monthly supervisor meeting, I told my boss that "my observance (not complain) is almost everyone in our unit is unhappy." So she asked me why. I said, "well, A is unhappy, maybe because we have the annual evaluation. B has been unhappy for the past few months. C is upset. D says A is 'giving her crap' and I quote that." So my boss responded, "A is anxious because the new client is rather high maintenance. C is upset and I am okay with that. He should be upset. B needs to go home."

She skipped D, I guess there is no much to say about D.

Okay, so after a page long of venting, I now feel much better.

People are just crazy. Oh and the drugstore messed up my purchase today but I am waaaayyyyyyy too tired to fix it. For God's sake, (and forgive me for saying this), but they are just plain stupid. I am so sick and tired of them that I may as well as start using department store beauty products.

Never Say Never

標題和內文沒有特別關係，只是pandora剛好放到這首，突然覺得自己寫得出字來了。

今天，是上班甚至是來美國以來，第一次感到自己比沙子還小，是那麼孤單。